Everything that is very typical for UK in one picture, Red bus, Westminster Abbey, Big Ben, London Eye, Phone booth and a cab. haha Perfect! We went here the days just after the attack against Westminster. It was a tension in the air and many were silent in the area. It was very moving and hit me straight in the heart, feelings was felt. It was powerful to be there.
So as you can see from the title this will be about Cola, I will not tell anyone not to drink it or anything like that. I will only tell you Why I won’t be drinking it any more.
Today I had a can of Cola, regular. This will be the last drop of cola I will ever drink. The list to why I made this decision can be long and of course it is not healthy for anyone to drink it, but that’s up to everyone if you do or not. Now a day’s most people are aware that Cola has a lot of suger in it anyway and videos of boiling it has gone around the internet.
My biggest reason for this decision is because of anxiety.
I hadn’t had a Cola in two weeks before today, due to the fact that I hadn’t felt like having one, but today I though it would taste good so why not get one. I should not have done that. Just 20 min after finishing it I started to feel warm and my heart started to accelerate, thinking ‘oh no I hope I’m not getting sick’. Though I quickly figure out it is anxiety that I am feeling due to the suger and caffeine in the Cola.
To have anxiety is a part of my everyday life now, I have learnt how to live with it and not letting it stop me from doing the things I want to do. But it is still the WORST feeling ever, you have no control over it once it has started to take over your body and mind, you just have to wait it out. Sure I have my tricks today to help it pass faster and so but getting anxiety from suger and caffeine is something else. That is a physic reaction in the body and not in your mind, you have no control over that, you just have to wait it out. Sitting and waiting, feeling how your heart is beating hard out of your chest, getting warm and sweaty as this all makes you feel nausea, knowing no tricks will help it.
It is a horrible feeling, that I am well aware of.
Though not until today had I figured it was because of Cola that I had felt this way every now and then. I have been giving myself anxiety for years, just by drinking Cola. This is why I will stop today, I will never have another Cola in my life. I can not continue to do this to me now when I finally figured out one thing that gives me this feeling, and it is not in my mind.
Why do something when you know it makes you feel bad?
I chose Peace of my Mind before a can of Cola from now on!
So the first full they in London with mom and Eva we started by going to Hyde Park and just soak in the nature, sun and springfeelings that was in the air. It was so beautiful with all the flowers blooming and the many birds that lives in the park, being out and showing them self off almost. It was just so lovely ^^